tomorrow is here.

I know you say you dont remember but you did tell me not to worry. That we'd worry about "tomorrow" when it got here... well here we are. Did you lie? Did you mean anything you said? Where you just upset and needed someone to screw? What part did i play in this? Was I the other women? How could i ever believe you? I guess it dosent matter, because your done with me, we are through and somehow i knew it would end this way.... the sun would set and tomorrow would come and you'd want nothing to do with me. THIS is why i didnt give in, did let myself go.... why i couldnt have sex with you.... maybe im being over dramatic but you never talk to me anymore, and have cut me out of your life, so what else can i think but you have finally gotten sick of me (so much for your promise to say bye first).

only the last part seems to fit but maybe one day maybe it all will.

"You never call me when you're sober...
You only want it cause it's over...
Oh it's over!

How could I have burned paradise?
How could I? You were never mine!"

welp i just proved...

... i am the stupidest bitch that ever lived.....




Now i remember why i stoped breaking my promises... I trust too much.


Trust she wouldnt tell...


Trust if she did, the other she wouldnt care at this point....



But i was sooooooo wrong. She told, and it got around... and yes.. SHE cares..... and so HE knows i told and i ws gonna be the better friend and not say but to hell with this friendship.... she wants to be egocentric and think its all about her fine i will let it be all about her.

and i have lost two friendships.... because i thought she should know....