I hate how everything costs too much.
I hate that i cant talk to Trevor about it either.
I try- i try to tell him and hint even that he should save but it falls on deft ears.
He says he will do waht he can and he is trying but thats BULL SHIT... he brought a cell phone, one he didnt need for $35. (i should add its not working). He got himself a baseball glove the other day... idk what it cost but i know it was probably atlest $10.
IT makes me wanna give up.
I do think i may not even try to expect it this year anymore. He hasnt been listening to me at all. Not a damn word and that is what hurts more then not getting married this year. The fact he says its importaint but its not according to his actions.
How am i suppose to tell him?
Monday, June 21, 2010
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
gone
So its getting more and more out.
I am in love, i want to get married, and sooner or later i will.
Just had a long talk with mouse about plans, and "what i need to do" and i just smile and nooded to be nice but inside i was thinking "yeah- but no" "maybe for you but not me" and "or i could not" yes i know i havent told her every plan i have but that dosent mean i want her to tell me stuff or give advice... why do i care she got married for less then 3k? Why? she had over a year to plan... granted she changed her mind and decided to bump the wedding up (they didnt HAVE to and they wont convince me they did). But i want to get married this year- just a few months... i have some ideas and thoughts and as soon as i can i will start on that THEN i'll get advice on the rest but if she took the ten seconds to ask "do you want/need adivce?" she'd save her self time she could be with her husband. even a "if you need ANYTHING just ask" i'd go to her if i needed her advice.
She dosent get i dont want to sit and talk about it... she thinks just cause im in love i will want to gush about a wedding thats not even got a date set yet. Maybe i am suppose to and the fact im not is a terrible thing but im just not comfortable about talking about it just yet. if i have conserns i'll ask (i did and when she said it was fine i find out later it wasnt... long story)
If she loves me so much why cant she just back off and let ME plan MY wedding. :-(
I am in love, i want to get married, and sooner or later i will.
Just had a long talk with mouse about plans, and "what i need to do" and i just smile and nooded to be nice but inside i was thinking "yeah- but no" "maybe for you but not me" and "or i could not" yes i know i havent told her every plan i have but that dosent mean i want her to tell me stuff or give advice... why do i care she got married for less then 3k? Why? she had over a year to plan... granted she changed her mind and decided to bump the wedding up (they didnt HAVE to and they wont convince me they did). But i want to get married this year- just a few months... i have some ideas and thoughts and as soon as i can i will start on that THEN i'll get advice on the rest but if she took the ten seconds to ask "do you want/need adivce?" she'd save her self time she could be with her husband. even a "if you need ANYTHING just ask" i'd go to her if i needed her advice.
She dosent get i dont want to sit and talk about it... she thinks just cause im in love i will want to gush about a wedding thats not even got a date set yet. Maybe i am suppose to and the fact im not is a terrible thing but im just not comfortable about talking about it just yet. if i have conserns i'll ask (i did and when she said it was fine i find out later it wasnt... long story)
If she loves me so much why cant she just back off and let ME plan MY wedding. :-(
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