are white lies all white?

can they be black or red or blue?



He said he was part demon... i told him he wasnt a demon but a fallen angel. He told me i was the first to put it like that (I win!!!!)



He also clumped me in with "all" the other girls who like him... am i any different?


he is so cryptic

"the stars are blackmail for me"- a new perspective.

Its been drawn to my attention i dont post enough. ok fine. POST! k im done





j/k






ok so two things occourd to me.. one will form a short story later. but the otehr is this.... i was hurt by someones broken promises. i really want to call hima nd tell him i glad things worked out this way. that he is not anything like the person i thought he was. (wish granted im slightly angry). No im not "over" it... he will probably always have some kind of power over me.

life goes on

and on, and on, and on, and on, and on, and on, and on, and you get the idea.



that was to prove the next point. I seem to be stuck in the same rut.

faith and trust meet logic and reality (or past experences). I want to think things in my life will turn a certain way. My friends say don't give up. There is still a chance. but if i don't give up this trust... false hope maybe.. logic tells me i will be crushed. Should i give up on this dream or cling knowing i may be hurt from the broken shards of my heart?


a few posts back i mentioned a dark cloud. it found me.... i always loved to dance in the rain. as much as i hate this storm im in there isnt anything else i'd rather do. (i COULD sit and mope, or complain, or something but i want to dance)


"like a moth burned by the flame selfish greed led me to pain.
through my pride and dispair found your love waiting there

This is where new life begins!

PLEASE TAKE CONTROL!"