drama again :P

I really hate drama.... but it seems to pull me in- maybe its the crowed i keep.



I believe in respecting the place you live in, much more so when your a guest. Do i pay rent? no. Do i flat out own? No. so is this MY house, no... its my parents so i am a guest here- they allow me to stay rent free.... so i see no reason to try and change things too much.... Too bad Mouse thinks differently.... she has Ben to back her up though...


They asked me what color i wanted to paint the bathroom (this after the "accidental" ripping of the wall paper, which i was asked if i wanted it to come all the way down). I told them maybe a light blue, or cream color- mouse had other suggestions, so i said thats fine, i really didnt care (cause i dont)... also they asked about the showerdoors... i hated them so i voted to have them removed but only if it was ok with mom and dad first..... well what they didnt ask was "do you care what curtin we buy" or "do you care if we move things around" so now the shower curtian is CLEAR.... i feel akward... it took me a extra 10 mins in there just cause i kept looking around.. i felt so exposed. my bottles are in a different spot (one was thrown away and im pretty sure i didnt do it- i dont care how empty it was you DONT mess with someone elses stuff. ) I could say something but its not like it would matter whats done is done. I hate having to confront her about things cause she somehow makes it my fault, no matter what it is. Also this morning my hand towel and washcloth were gone... So i asked them and they said they washed some things they were probably in there... well they took the clean clothes to their room this morning and yet by 9:30 pm (11 hours later) they still werent back (hmmmm) Also i know my bucket might have been in the way but there is NO other place for it and they moved it without saying ONE DAMN word to me...

WHAT THE FUCK??????


It might be something small but to me it says "we dont really care what you think, we want it our way if its thats inconveintant for you.. find a place where its not"

Grrrrrrr...... im so out of here as soon as i can find a place.... infact here is my mental plan:
get my licence, get insured if i have enough left over after that per month ask a friend if i can move in with her and tell her what i can pay a month... she knows i am having issues here she sees how ragged i look each week at church. If it works it might not be long at all... just a couple of months....

I dont know if i have the energy to last till October here. :(