Losing my will to fight.....

"Clutching my cure, I tightly lock the door
I try to catch my breath again
I hurt much more, than any time before
I have no options left again"

This is was me around 10.... i felt the urge to either yell at the top of my lungs, or fall back to my "cure." i asked people to come and the replys where more like "whatever" so i told them i'd be there.... but even though people seemed to care they didnt so i left... yes i was kinda mad that people seemed to be in the mindset of "if you want to" and i thought by me saying i'd be there that was enough to let it sink in I WANT TO FUCKING SCREAM... but no...


so yeah... atlest im not alone anymore.... although i still feel this need to scream or break..... and the scream isnt gonna happen.

.... i am losing my will to fight....

.....to be continued.