gone

So its getting more and more out.

I am in love, i want to get married, and sooner or later i will.

Just had a long talk with mouse about plans, and "what i need to do" and i just smile and nooded to be nice but inside i was thinking "yeah- but no" "maybe for you but not me" and "or i could not" yes i know i havent told her every plan i have but that dosent mean i want her to tell me stuff or give advice... why do i care she got married for less then 3k? Why? she had over a year to plan... granted she changed her mind and decided to bump the wedding up (they didnt HAVE to and they wont convince me they did). But i want to get married this year- just a few months... i have some ideas and thoughts and as soon as i can i will start on that THEN i'll get advice on the rest but if she took the ten seconds to ask "do you want/need adivce?" she'd save her self time she could be with her husband. even a "if you need ANYTHING just ask" i'd go to her if i needed her advice.


She dosent get i dont want to sit and talk about it... she thinks just cause im in love i will want to gush about a wedding thats not even got a date set yet. Maybe i am suppose to and the fact im not is a terrible thing but im just not comfortable about talking about it just yet. if i have conserns i'll ask (i did and when she said it was fine i find out later it wasnt... long story)

If she loves me so much why cant she just back off and let ME plan MY wedding. :-(