Gusty like the wind

I am getting into Death-note.. i would love to read to manga. Gonna look to see if i can get it from the library... I looked for Rob bell but they only had sex god... really sad... I will probably end up buying Velvet Elvis.

So i have spent way too long searching for a song... it has taken me 15 minutes (at the very lest) to find it anywhere that isnt in 30 second clips.. Im gonna have to buy it soon cause i love the cd. Just hearing the song makes me want to jump around amd pump my fists.
Here are the words...

Gusty like the wind- by Maylene and the sons of disaster. 
Distant from faces hollow and uncomfortable.
I haven't been up or down in so long, but believe me.
Depression just takes too much and I'm far to drained to give her what's due.
I live for defeat.
Find myself searching for the worst.
Take me where I need to go.
I'm much to tired to live alone.
Making a life dead on the inside.
Circulation like 65 at 5 and it never lets up.
Tomorrow I'll  forget what drove me to this paper, but I'll use it anyway.
Like the friends and family I love and ignore.
God give me a reason to love this place.
Come on just one more reason.
Making a life dead on the inside.
Circulation like 65 at 5 and it never lets up.
I'm trying to shake these bitter days but it never lets up.
Making a life dead on the inside.
Circulation like 65 at 5 and it never lets up.

I have been dealing with demons. Questions dancing in my head... mainly involoving emotions. How do i feel about situations, or those involved... What could i say? It not like i can really do anything. I don't even know if i could help things so why should i get inolved (aside from prayer?) Hmm shower time i think. I will maybe post a story on dev later.