Collecting the broken pieces.

Life is?? Confusing.


I have to work in the morning and i dont have my phone.... as separat as these things might be i can explain. I got a ride from a friend today, but i believe my phone is in his car. Another person (one i work with) is suppose to pick me up tomorrow, and he said he'd call when he arrived. not possible if my phone is in someone elses car. *gah* not to meantion my alarm is set for the morning and i kinda want to get up on time :( sad day... i NEED to see if i can get the phone back tonight.


*sigh* my job is killing me. I am so stressed out and it is just taking so much out of me. Not demanding, but i feel like i cant breathe. Maybe that is normal, but i dont think so.


Friendships are hurting too. One is in a certain mood that always bugs me. and another is pushing away. I know he fears getting hurt but i havent hurt him yet. So why, if nothing changes between us, would i start? Maybe he knows something i dont. Also he is in so much pain, and i know keeping everything in will NOT be good for him. He needs to let it out. I bottle most things up but if i dont let it out i implode. Thats what will happen to him if he doesn't... but maybe i worry too much.