lost, found, and missing.

Lost:
I lost some people resently... wont go into details. Who, when, how... it just hurts to know that people i thought where there, arent there. I know im to blame for some of these lost friends.... i should do more, talk more. Not that im not good enough but i should have done more... Then again there are some friends i know would have left no matter what i did, said or didnt. It is their problem not mine. I have made peace with this (but i still mourn the loss of that person).

Found:
I was told that im not alone in one of my obesstions. My best friend found out why i love a certain actor. Its good to know im not alone lol. (even if i have mellowed out in the past few months). I think humans feel better when they know that they arent alone in their thoughts/feelings. It could be something serious as drugs or alcohol, or innocent as famous people, tv shows, and being a "fan of aglets" on facebook.

Missing:
ITs been 17 days sence i last saw my love, and it will be another 18 :( 5 weeks with only having the phone as a point of contact sucks. :( I miss him a lot. But this is a good thing i guess... the hardest part i think is when we are together i have these weeks of repressed emotions spilling out. Would things be easier if we saw eachother every few days?